salam ramadhan...

hurm...everyone's looking forward to friday....especially friends who are married rang her words to my ears telling that they cant wait for this Raya holiday....first time raya with the husband and in-laws, and i know the first wont be the same as the other..i mean the first day, month and year celebrating raya with new family will be remembered and need to be cherished more...

but it doesn't apply to me. as for me who are the unmarried one, i long for weekends and holidays specially for spending my precious time with the loved ones that is, the families, 6 of them. if im already married, i'll spend most of my time with the husband and start to distance myself from the families as i got more and more responsibilities....to be frank, im not ready for it.

to put it as an analogy, it's better to have RM6 rather than RM1 right?...i hope you got what i mean.
despite myself, i realized i need to leave the house and stay with the husband someday. unless, i'll drag him to stay with my parents which i never ever planned to.

throughout my 23 years, i haven't tried so hard to be the best daughter to my parents, sister to a younger bro and a younger sis, younger sister to an elder bro and sis.

i need more time with my families and this also explains why im not married yet.

salam Ramadhan...

two entries in a row....thats sooo me if i know what to write, i'll write extensively...
i got two shocking news which i discovered yesterday through FB....im not telling you that im a busybody type of person...but FB can reveal everything right?
ok first, i came across my secondary schoolmate's wall yesterday and i found that there's no picture of her with her fiance anymore....there's no recent status updated which she used to do. i tried to scroll down her page and found most of the recent post all were the sad ones...i sensed something wrong happened to her lately and my assumption was true.supportive comments and a lot of advice offered by friends as i scrolled down..pity her. people said it's better to end the engagement when you see so many bad things happened among you, and do not work out the way you want them to be rather than you ruined your marriage life later on.

second, this person is also one of my secondary schoolmates who are married with a child. she uploaded several pictures of her together with the husband and child...at times, i'll go to her page to see her cute lil boy's progress...one day, i got one friend request which was from her using new nickname. i started to wonder and to my surprise, there's no picture of the husband, only her beloved child. today, the relationship status is changed from "married to (somebody) " to "in relationship with......(somebody else). she's already divorced and now having a new rlationship.

these stories scared me the most...what a life.

everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain. but u cant have a rainbow, without a little rain....
to both of you, i'll pray for your happiness and good fortune....insyaAllah...