salam..

don't tell him that he's lucky to have me
for i'm not a perfect person...
and nobody's perfect though...

sometimes i tend to isolate myself from d crowd for i found that crowd can be destructive to me sometimes... people tend to bad-mouth others or groups that don't have the same belief, notion, characters as theirs...i started to grapple with the bad and good side of me then, eventually brings me into conflict with myself as either to join or choose not to respond to any....

i realized that there's not only sugar in life....sometimes, people consciously or intentionally put salt and pepper into it thus making it colourful....
and bear this in mind, don't expect me to be always on the top and being nice and good for i've experienced failure and being hated by people due to my breakthrough or else...
i love competition but it should be only healthy competition....i hate people who r always scrutinizing me or simply say being busy body in every second and minute of my time....maybe to check whether im studying or sleeping soundly and they happily went back to their room....

i love sharing...giving and taking....specifically dessiminating info or knowledge and hoping others will do the same to me...plz give me room and chance to be free rider sometimes...acquiring and disseminating knowledge and giving info are two different things...acquiring knowledge requires hardwork coz it involves understanding....in the context of test or quizzes, im willing to give answers to ppl but i hardly asked theirs, not bcoz they r not convincing but.....i have reasons for that.....that's y i rarely felt so down if i got low marks coz i knw Allah is all-knowing......

satisfaction and happiness wont accompany me if my success is actually not the real well-deserved one....